Friday, December 16, 2011

Its been a while


So the last time I updated my blog was Sept. 2008, since then so much has happened, I am really bad and at times reluctant to keep this thing updated, however, as per baby sis's request, I am writing an entry.

Deen is now 3 and Iman will be 6 in Feb, Inshallah, so I have come a long way from being pregnant and having maternal worries to today. I have been reluctant about updating the blog b/c its sometimes intimidating knowing that a large number of people (assuming so) can and have read this, alas, but I guess that is part of the purpose of having such a thing--to have a large number of followers (but still kinda scares me).

On My Mind:
Anyway, off to Houston on Tuesday, my baby sister is getting married, and the middle one got married in July, and is now expecting. Can't believe so many changes are taking place, our family is morphing every six months it seems, however, we are so blessed that all the changes coming are positive.

Kids:
Iman is becoming more and more mature every day, it seems. I have pretty intellectual conversations with her and her vocabulary and reasoning surprises me at times. I ask her if she has any friends at school, b/c she has started Kindergarten, her response, "I have friends, but not that many friends, I have people I play with but I don't really think of them as friends, but I do have some friends." How intuitive, I thought to myself. As we adults would say, "I know people, but I would not consider them my friends, however, I do have friends," sometimes it scares me how smart and logical she can be, would I have ever said anything like that at her age, probably not, everyone in my class was my "friend" not distinguishable of the status of our relationship. Iman is funny.

Deen on the other hand, is smart and very clever is own way, he picks up so much. I feel he has an instinct to protect his Mommy. He cries if I ever get hurt--one time I cut myself with a knife while cooking, when is saw blood he immediately got a band aid and had tears in his eyes. That might not make him exceptional, but I never really saw that in Iman, instinct to protect mom, that is. He is still so little to me, I also, find myself worrying if he is okay (when he is not with me), when he is with the nanny or anywhere else. I feel that Iman is tougher in many ways, but that could just relate to the age difference.

I have noticed as time has progressed my husband and I have treated Iman as if she was older than her age (my husband disagrees). It may be b/c of her advance vocabulary or just b/c she is the first born. It kinda correlates to how the first born instinctually have more sense of responsibility and (in the cases I have seen), b/c they are held responsible for their actions and choices from the beginning, compared to the middle or youngest child, this is just my observation.

Me:
Between commuting to The City every day for work, working full-time, cooking, cleaning, taking care of the family, I rarely have any time for myself. I have forced myself (not without guilt) of eating out with friend(s) after work twice month, just so I have relationships with people outside family. I used to go to the gym and even do yoga, but I have completely stopped that, and I get about 40 minutes before bed to watch my favorite soap, besides that there is no time.

New Year’s Resolutions--
1. Go to the gym at least twice a week
2. Continue to make time with friends twice a month
3. Instead of balancing housework and kids after I come home from work, focus on kids, housework will always be there, it’s never ending.
4. Make plans with Hubby that actually pan out
There you go Aisha--you will have to wait a couple of months for the next entry.
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